Where to start? I’m a 17 year old girl trying to get in shape for the summer of ‘11. I’ve always been on the heavier end of the scale, but not so much from fat. I actually just recently started to develop quite a bit of chub. I was born with an athletic body type which means I have always had a crap load of muscle, and I’ve always taken advantage of this by doing sports.

Unfortunately things took a turn for the worse in ‘07 when I decided to start being on the computer all the time, this was fine because I still maintained a pretty active life style. In ‘08 is where I really messed up by going on a month long road trip where I just ate disgusting fast food all the time. What else can you eat when you’re transporting an iguana and a puppy from one end of the country to the other? Sure we could have stocked up on healthy snacks or get some real food to prepare at the hotel rooms for dinner, but it was just easier to go to McDonalds all the time. Big fail because I left for the road trip weighing in at 118 and came back weighing about 125. To top off what was already a disaster, I stopped playing sports and being active. My days were spent eating cup o’ noodle soups and playing WoW all day everyday. Yup, bad choice.

So I waited and waited, thinking the pounds would just drop but they didn’t. They kept coming and coming and it was just terrible. I started to starve myself a little until I got back down to the 130’s.. At 137 I stopped starving myself and started eating smaller portions of healthier things. I started doing a little bit of exercise and yeah. I started this about half way through January so I’m kind of pleased with the fact that it’s actually working. :]

I’m not doing this for anyone, really. I just want to feel better about myself. I want to be able to go back to wearing tank tops as more than just under shirts. I’m doing this to boost my already high level of confidence. I’m doing this so that I can look fantastic in a new bikini this summer. I’m doing this so that when I have a boyfriend, I’m not embarrassed to be seen in public with him because he’s skinnier than me. I’m doing this so my Mom will stop harassing me about my size. I’m doing this for that cute gap between my thighs. I’m doing this so I can wear fun leggings with cute over sized sweaters. I’m doing this so I don’t feel the need to hide every inch of my body all hours of the day. I’m doing this so I can take a shower without rushing to avoid seeing my reflection. I’m doing this for me. I’m doing this because I want to. I’m doing this because I can and I will.

If you want my prog blog, send me a message and I’ll send the link and password to your ask. Please don’t publish it because I’m trying to keep this whole dealio a secret from the people I know. :]